I realized today that I'm a little bit ticked off. Ok, maybe more than a little bit. I've always thought of myself as young, optimistic, and energetic. The truth is that I'm not any of those things anymore, at least not as much as I'd like to think. In this past week, 2 people who are dear to me have had to face health issues. One is being resolved as I write, thankfully, and the other is a chronic health condition that needs monitoring. Ok, I say, at least it's not the BIG C (sounds optimistic, right?) and it's something that's treatable. The thing is, since it's not my health issue, there's only so much I can do about it. Thus the angst. What I can do is be supportive without nagging and hope that support in turn creates more positive action. But that is SO difficult for me, the waiting, watching. I'm an action kinda gal: there's a problem, how can I fix it? Is it inevitable as we age to have to face these issues? Of course it is, and so there's the anger. Isn't life supposed to get a bit easier, less stressful as we age, look towards becoming the big 5-or6-0??
No, really, shouldn't it?
Or maybe, it's our attitude that makes it seem easier to take. Or rather than easier, perhaps just more tolerable, the perspective we see things from at this point, hopefully that of appreciation and some faith. A wise person told me recently that they are learing to live by appreciating what they have, not the material things, but relationships, seeing the glass as half full. It's not always easy, but it is possible. So I've decided to channel that anger and angst into action, at least for myself in terms of taking care of the things that I have power over and letting the rest go, as much as I can. I'm writing it down, in case I forget.
So there, I feel a little less ticked off, a little more optimistic, and well, 2 out 3 ain't bad, right?
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